“To be loved, feelings must be rationed. To love, the doors of hysteria, fantasy, and madness may be flung open.”
― Anton LaVey
In February, I stopped talking to all of my friends. My best friend, my good friends, online friends, everyone. I made them all mad at me on purpose. I want them to hate me. That way they won’t ever hear about me killing myself. I don’t want them to be angry or sad about what I’m going to do. If I stayed friends with them, they’d be sad. They’d cry. They’d blame themselves. I don’t want them hurt over my actions because I love them. And I miss them very much. Sometimes I get the urge to get in my car and drive to see my best friend, even though I’m not her best friend anymore, but then I think better. she’s happy and not giving a thought about me, which is good. They’re all happy and loving their lives without me, without thinking of me or missing me or wanting to hang out. But that’s the way I want it because I’m never making it out of this ditch. I’ve suffered with this for too long. 7 Years of pain and torture and covering it up with fake laughs and smiles and arrogant statuses so no one has to know. I’m tired and weak and I’m just a shell of a person. A ghost. I give up
How can a teacher get mad at you for being late if a staircase changes direction while you’re in the middle of it?? There’s no tellin’ where it leaves you, and Hogwarts is a giant castle..
#I can just imagine Sirius & James #running late for their first class #when suddenly #the staircase changes direction #Sirius’ telling James #that they should just skip class #because the staircase said so #and so they toured the castle #when suddenly #they saw a boy #who has light brown hair and scars cutting across his face #running towards them #asking which direction the Potions Class is being taught #James’ being all confident says #it’s this way, come, we’ll guide you #while Sirius is hiding his grin #because really #it’s their first day #how would they memorize all the passageways in just one night #and so all day they circled around the castle #getting lost #finding their way back #discovering secret passages #all the while sealing a bond of friendship that will never break
the tags made me cry
Omg I ship that
Parenting done right.
I actually can’t believe how much time they spent on this, parenting at its best